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Some days the sun catches things a little bit differently and it is just sweeter. I mean when you look around to see what the difference is you can't put your finger on it. Your still scrubbing grease out of the same pan. your kids are still only moderately getting along. You jeans are still too tight. Your bank account is still barely in the black. Your minivan still smells like burning plastic. But none of that matters .Not only does it not matter but you are thankful for it. The bacon grease, the muffin top, the scrappy kids, the stinky van. You put on a Bon Iver song and scrub your pan with your kids fighting in the background, and your heart is so so full that it spills over and out of your eyes. I think this is what it feels like when my eyes are on God, because in the light of Him it is all so much better. When I have these days I think if I can just hold on to this nothing else matters. I know He is always there I just get distracted sometimes, I look away from Him and turn to my circumstances, and when i do that no matter what they are I feel sad, empty, and overwhelmed, and when I turn back I wonder why I ever looked away because He is just so stinking good.